Day 36 of 365

1. That I am OMFG BUSY at work
2. I have been asked to help out in guild and been given access to some officer discussion... they trust me enough to help out
3. That I was invited to a brain storming meeting with the new ED. He thought I was smart enough to be there... and I did ok considering it started at 830am
4. A break from NGB and the house and the dogs made me realize even more how much I love them (the boy and the dogs) and how much that house is my home
5. After working hard on the road all morning, the afternoon to nap, soak int he tub, hang out on the computer... and get paid for it! 

Day 35 of 365

The pressure is on... I was away for work and didn't GiST and now I am DAYS behind... 

1. That I am not pregnant (it's not the right timing)
2. That I am sad that I am not pregnant (despite it not being the right time, I am happy it could have happened)
3. Sugar cookies.... yummy yummy sugar cookies
4. A fun road trip with work grils
5. That I am all done with the pregnancy talk

Day 34 of 365

1. That this is the first time that I felt the slightest need to buy a pregnancy test
2. That above mentioned test works faster than ever before
3. That I will be out of town for the next couple of days, so I can take the test there and no one will know
4. That I am really sure that I am not pregnant
5. But if I am, I will be overjoyed to have created a person with NGB

Day 33 of 365

1. Marble Slab ice cream
2. Pretty red nails
3. Foot rubs
4. Holding hands with NGB 
5. Having a laptop to take with me on my roadtrip

Day 32 of 365

1. Lazy Saturdays. By choice, not by illness. 
2. Jeans that make me look skinny-ish
3. My warm and soft robe to snuggle in
4. That Sherman has stopped peeing in the floor vent (although he has only done it once)
5. My boston terrir head change purse

Do you know?

Do you know if your child is not... attractive? Every child is cute, but there is attractive cute and then there is a small human being cute. Madeline is perfectly, adorably, attractive cute (from Mat, Liz & Madeline). Others not as much.... No, I will never post a link to a less-than-attractive child. 

As a parent, do you know? Do you know that your child is not attractive or do the hormones and love take any of the objectiveness away? 

I can look at someone (human or pet) that I love and I can be objective. That I love them just the way they are but I know objectively, according to society's standards of attractiveness (often messed up, yes) are not being met. As a parent, though... And what if your child is not attractive? What if they are even ugly?

This is coming out so shallow. I would love my child for who they are and attractiveness does not matter. I just wonder... NGB and I have, in the past, talked about what if we had a child that wasn't "perfect". If there were health issues, developmental issues, or something as meaningless  as attractiveness I would not love the child less. 

But do you know? 

Day 31 of 365

1. Arizona Diet Blueberry Green Tea
2. Cake for lunch when the salad you bought is gross
3. That I am truly happy (and not that scared) at the very very small chance that me and NGB made a person
4. The amazing food my mother makes... aka mommy food
5. That it is Friday and tomorrow is sleep-in day